I wish I had the time for one.
Things are picking up a bit around here. I received a call from a client to do a rewrite on a proposal and have been dealing with a breakneck deadline on that. I sent the copy over to the client just an hour ago and have received a positive response, plus another rewrite assignment. While I’m waiting for copy, I thought I’d spend a little time here.
First off, another duck is on the ropes. A younger one this time. It went into a serious molt a couple weeks ago and has been despondent the last few days. No idea what is wrong with her, and we are hoping her unsteadiness and lethargy are the after-effects of the molt as she tries to regrow feathers.
I’d also like to address some of the comments from the previous post. In short, yes, it is a bankroll issue. Work is still sporadic as I ramp up my writing and say good-bye to the farming life. Therefore, we are still in a financial limbo.
Bankroll is key, there's no doubt about it.
I couldn't possibly have contemplated my year-long experiment without being willing to really and truly bankroll myself for it. *gulp*
I will not sit down at a table in a casino this year without at least 5 buy-ins in my pocket. It puts my head in a completely different place.
Only an hour and a half to a real live casino? Cripes, I'd commute there every other day if I had one that close!
Dear Sister Cardgrrl, if I had 5 buy-ins to bring along to the casino, I’d feel like I ruled the world. In that my casino roll totaled 7.5 buy-ins, I guess I was fucked from the start.
Good point from CG. My little trick was putting my casino winnings in a separate container and only ever using that money for trips to the casino. That way, mentally I was playing other peoples money instead of seeing my own hard ended going into the pot. :)
And to my dear friend, Gumpo: I tried that, or rather, a variation on that. Last year I split my winnings with my dear wife. See above. Needed the cash for other things. The result was that when I lost, there was no one to split it with and funds got depleted. This year I resolved to keep all of my winnings for my roll. The poker gods had other ideas.
there are plenty of real money but micro stakes online. You should be able to absolutely kill at those games with all the bad players.
I know it's ultimately not about the money with you, or you wouldn't have spent so much time becoming one of the top 3 PAX players. So it must be more about the intellectual challenge and the thrill of competition. Play .01/.02c if you have to, but play!
And to dear Matt: I have tried those ultra-micros and find them way too frustrating, However, I have not tried multi-tabling them. Where is Yakshi to give me pointers? As to whether the game is about money, an intellectual challenge or the competitive spirit, it is about all three. The first one has my attention at the moment. I have spent so much time on PA under the assumption that by improving my game there, I would have an easier time moving into real money. That has not been the case. In fact, a case might now be made that the longer I play at PA, the more harm it will do to my overall judgment in cash games.(I may address this issue at length later.)
Both Matt and Sandman suggest trying the micros again. I’ll give it a go.
Dear friends, thanks for reading and responding.